Depression is real

People think depression is sadness, crying or dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb.

Chester Bennington the Voice of God

Your voice were there during some of the toughest part of my life.

I took Linkin Park for granted, thinking they would be there years to come, believing there are few more awesome songs in them.

Thought we could go to their concert when I'm much older. I was wrong... yet again. (shocker)

                            

He has a very clean image and were always so cheerful, he masked the depression so well that I could've never had guess that he was suffering. Listening to the words now, I guess, he was suffering all along.

                            


I really look up to him, I wanted to look like him. I grow up influenced by his image,  button earing & tattoos (plan of it anyway) .

RIP Chester, 21 July 2017, took his life on his Chris Cornell bday

I finally know what they call me, and I couldn't have agreed more

Kind of addicted to Nina Simone at the moment

Few years later...

Its been sometime now  since the last blog post (13 March 2011). Thats 2324 days
Or 6 years, 4 months, 10 days.

I've made new friends, lost a few, and there are those just in limbo.

Nobody seems to be blogging anymore, we are all so busy with life.

So much has changed since the last I posted....

1. The most significant is that I'm married now, LOL, someone accepted me unconditionally, my good and my bad.

14 January 2017

Our first Dance as Man and Wife

2. I'm no longer in Melaka... not even in Malaysia. I'm now working in Singapore :)

I was with Samsung for 4 years and now jump ship to 🍎  for about a year now, its been fun. In Samsung, meet allot of people who treats me like I'm family, felt so comfortable that I was there for 3 years longer than initially plan.

They even travel all the way to Melaka just for our wedding.

The best part of staying in Singapore is our housemates, so adorable I'm gonna die

 3. I went to Japan few years back with my brother Selvan and then GF(now wife) Sandra. We were at the Kanto(Tokyo) region. I made a promise to come back and explore the Kansai (Kyoto, Osaka, Kobe, Nara) region, and thats what I did for our Honeymoon. Thats a blog post on its own I believe.

4.  Went to Coldplay concert with my best friend a week before the trip to Japan. The strange thing here is that we made a promise to each other that for my honeymoon, I will check where Coldplay would hahis concert and we will both fly there, then we will meet up for the concert and I will continue my Honeymoon. This is wayyy before Coldplay announced their Asia Tour. We didn't get our ticket until the week before the concert date. Pheeww, so lucky.

 We made new friends from the moment we started queuing until after the concert. 

5. Got promoted twice in my current job less then a year working, thats good.

6. We went to Marina Bay Sands right after the wedding for a short honeymoon, spend all day in the infinity pool and Jacuzzi.

Look at the size of the room, the bedroom and toilet is not in this picture!!

2017 has been really great, ohh, other then the fact that DONALD TRUMP IS THE PRESIDENT AND CHESTER BENNINGTON COMMITTED SUICIDE 2 DAYS AGO.

Everything else seems good. Ohh yeah, Jibby still PM.

I really miss schooling days, I miss my friends. Seems everybody is busy doing their own thing.
They did make a plan to meet up, for a holiday together, but its really hard to get the off time from work that fits.
Living? Trying to "make it big" somewhere else in the world.


I really hope I will update this blog more frequently.

I lost count of the times i wake up middle of the night crying because i miss the time u will sleep under my bed,

the time u will beg for food while im eating ,

the time u will follow mom whenever she walk,

the time i see u sleep

miss every time u will be there welcoming me even before i reach the front gate.....

every time u let me sleep near u on the floor...

I miss that 1 time u lick my tears and make me laugh and forget of all my problems

Bad dog...u leave me on the worst possible time.....i really need u now

Allot of things i need to tell u

The world will see my smile....masking everything else beneath

Hidup kena Enjoy!!!

Confirm the best semester ever ended with confirm one of the best holiday I ever had. Some of the things happen this semester:

1. My fb page appear on lecturers slide and it was plan by lecturer himself.

2. My name appear on midterm paper as a question that relates to SM(strategic management) thats the answer.

3. Ch n Pat ♥♥♥♥♥

4. Trip to istana budaya

5. My 2 diff Birthday surprises...damn grateful to Ch, Pat, Jess, Anusha, Rach and many others

6. Prank a whole classroom and get away with it as its our final project for Theatre.

7.Moviessssss

8. Dreambox and jetty

9. Food.....too many to list

10. Kayaking

11. Pats Durian farm.....all you can eat FTW

Hope every semester after this will be the same or more fun then this!!!! Then holiday comes (as usual skip the exam weeks)

1. Went for Iron Man+ Naan+ McD combo the day exam finish

2. Left for genting the day after exam finish....won RM100++..There is an uncle who bought chips for RM400, at 1 point he got like about RM800.....then when we cash out time...he left RM0...lost it all. We spent our winning (2 person won 100++) on peach cocktail and ordered in Kenny Rogers and Vietnam Food and soo many food while watching Lin Dan Vs Chong Wei for Thomas Cup on bed.......if not for winning in gambling I would have hated that day!!!!

3. Jonker till sien

4. more movies

5. More Dreambox with MMU n F6 frens

6. Paling cun is FREE FLOW ALCOHOL+ ALL YOU CAN EAT BUFFET at EQ last Sunday n Sunday....FOC damn it

7. Another trip to KL the next weekend

8. Pool + Gym + Swimming at Rivera Hotel

9. Wesak Walk

Still have this last week, hope to finish reading The case of Christ......and do more relaxing activities

The stupid things that happen when Exam season

Yesterday a girl wish me happy birthday..... but Its few days after my birthday...

So I replied, "Your mothers birthday lahh today!!!!"

Today she saw me and wished...."Happy Mothers day"

WTF.